Diary: This is 34

Photo by Chris Rylee

I feel like there are two moments when life gives you the chance to hit the “reset button.” New Year’s and Birthdays. Tomorrow is my birthday and I’m definitely taking a moment to look back on all that thirty-three has brought me. I feel, overwhelmingly so, gratitude.

I am so grateful for the amazing human beings who have become my tribe, who have been there for me when everything else in my life was falling apart. I’m grateful for falling in love, even if I had to experience the heartache of falling back out. I know I have a heart capable of it. I have experienced relationships, even if those, too, came to an end. I’m proud of me, and proud of how far I have come. I am living my most authentic life right now, surrounded by human beings who are lifting me up in that. It feels surreal and exciting.

As I begin this next year, I do so completely unattached, and as weird as that is for me sometimes, I know it is exactly how it should be. Here’s to thirty-four, to new beginnings, to living...truly living a life that I will never look back on with regrets or “what-ifs”, to keeping my heart open, to continuing to love myself, and to being vulnerable.

Thirty-four, you never looked so good.