Diary: Paris
"One year ago today I was on a plane headed to Paris. I had just come back from another trip. One day separating such vastly different men and different experiences. To succinctly put it, one man I was hoping to fall in love with, and another who was falling in love with me."
Diary: Finding the words
"I know it’s been a long time. The words have been there, all along, and yet…either I haven’t known the strength, or had the right space to really share them here.
...there will always be excuses to not write, to not share, but the words were still there, wanting and waiting to be shared."
Diary: Try, try, and fail again
"I was supposed to have a first date on Thursday...I was supposed to finally be meeting someone I was genuinely excited to meet, to get to know, to maybe even just allow myself to hope to find that spark, that excitement again...to have it all go away, again—just like that."
Diary: To be clear
"I’ve said it before, and it’s absolutely true: I have lived more in the past 5 years than in the previous eleven. Even though this wasn’t a turn I expected, I absolutely love the life I have created."
Diary: In the midst of COVID, there is still this
"It’s been five years. Five years since my ex-husband told me it was over and that he was leaving (for someone else).
I sometimes forget this story is new to some; I am personally so tired of this story that I forget that many don’t know it. I find this weekend is always a painful reminder of that story, but it’s also been a painful reminder of so many other endings since."
Diary: How are we doing here?
"People ask me how I am doing a lot these days, and I find it such a hard question to answer, honestly. How am I today? How am I in this moment? The truth is that it has been a lot of day-by-day, full of ups and downs, and some really hard shit."
Diary: I see you
"I want to take a moment to recognize every single woman who puts her heart out there: whether it’s for the first time, or for the 157th time, it took courage, heart, and vulnerability to face the possibility of love, at the risk of possible rejection. I hope you know, tonight, I see you. Your courage, heart, and vulnerability were echoed today in mine..."
Diary: New year
"Whether it’s the first or the second, this post is a reminder that you can start new, right here...in this moment, or in the next. You don’t need a New Year to hit the reset button, to finally make that leap of faith, to let go of the ones who don’t serve you anymore, or to finally start putting you first."
Diary: 2019
"So much to look back on...While it is so easy to focus on how hard this past year has been, I have intentionally been trying to focus on the good, because there truly was so much good in 2019.
Diary: On to the next (adventure)
Diary: 3 Months
“Hard to believe it’s only been three months, and yet so much has happened in that time. …
May 1st I had something amazing happen, and I even allowed myself to have hope. …I have hoped for something like this for so long...and it really felt like a dream, while it lasted.”
Paris for One
"I feel like I have already been on this journey of self-discovery for the past three and a half years, but going to Paris? It felt like the last missing puzzle piece I have been looking for and didn’t even know that I was missing. The journey has been a long one, but the most important and rewarding of my life. It’s been my journey to truly find me—just me—outside of anyone else..."